I know this title is stuuupid. But its too weird for me NOT to think this way. 3 August, the day when I first held her hand, the feeling was beyond what you have ever experienced. Its like you ate something so sweet that your jaws keep remain in a smiling position and you would keep replaying the flashbacks of what happened over and over again, and keep smiling to yourself. That's happiness, at least for me... That day, at night, its the 1st time her mum called me, was shocked, scared. Fear got me. It took me 1-2 days to realize that it was foolish of me to think that way. But whatever the cause, it happened on the day we 1st held hands. Next, yesterday. I went on a mad running spree. Saturday waited for her after cg. She said she wanted to go walkwalk in whitesands, but nobody pei her. So I went, however, she needs to bring her zr back so yeah nvms. Pei-ed her back then went off, the next day, Sunday. I went to wait for her at TM, since she had cg practice somewhere near there. I waited for her, 1hr 30mins. Then took the mrt back to pasir ris, then took the bus to tamp, where her tution was. Walked her all the way to tution. Needed her to push me away to get me going off... But I was happy cause I saw her smile... It meant that I did something that made her happy... So I was happy too... Later that evening had dinner with her, however her mum called me right after that, I rejected her calls, she took her phone, her's phone, her papa's phone, her bro's phone, her house phone and called me. I rejected it all. I some-what knew that she would be crying... And I'm not going to be so foolish go think 1-2 days, when I saw her, I instantly got the answer. So, her mum calls me whenever I'm happy with her. I am very totally ____ up. This post is just to say some weird stuff which in the end means repeating my past post ughs.

I love you, I'll always standby you no matter what happens kays? Please don't cry. It hurts me a lot, its something that I'll never tell you, and its something that you will never know, cause I don't think you'll be reading this..
Anyways, I just hope you'll really tell me your problems even though I know I am a stuuupid counseller. I never say comforting stuffs or provide shitty ideas, I just hope, I won't be left out...
And share your burden, not just watch you carry it alone...

And I finally know the feeling, how painful it is...
To wait for an sms or a msn message that will never come...

Busy playing guitar; vivo land!