Monday, January 26, 2009 @12:38 AM
I'm feeling stupid right now.
I don't know what i'm feeling.
its some kind of mixed up feeling.
i'm feeling sad, yet angry and pissed but not really angry and pissed.
and i'm crying on new years day! wohoo, not bad huhs.
grats on making me cry -,-
i was just being concerned.
and you're the last person on earth that i thought that you would do that to me. ( if put correcty, " not do that " is more appropriate )
no , i don't hate you, in fact, i hate myself, for being so weak and fragile. i'm crying now. no wait, must be the smoke. yup, the smoke is making tears run down my face and mucus coming out from my nose. yes i know what you're thinking. disgusting huhs.
and happy new year...
as much as i want you to stay happy and healthy, it was just my good intentions, but you're not getting it.
i give up.
i rushed back from malaysia, and had many things to tell you.
and... you weren't at home.
i know you're celebrating cny with your family members at your grandmama house, but i really felt hurt when you came back home and treated me like this.
i lost all the mood to tell you everything that happened today, what i was happy about, what i was sad about, what i saw, what i heard, pratically everything that happened today, i wanted to share with you, but you just...
sorry if you think i'm over-reacting.
but i can't help it. and i'm sorry.
but i still love you...
Busy playing guitar; vivo land!
